MY LITTLE BEAT POEM...

Identity (Inevitably alive...)


Who are you?
You, who stares at me with a silly grin on the face
who goes out with women you despise
and gives love to them
as if that was going to be your last night
you kiss and you cuddle and you abdicate your soul
Who are you?
You, who in the day after, wants to kill'em
punch them in the face
spit on them
and that makes you feel psychotic
like there is something utterly wrong going on in your mind
you, who repents and, nonetheless, can't wait to do it again.
Who are you?
You, who stares with envy at young couples and old couples
wanting to steal their happinesses
join them and listen to their private jokes and break'em up, and yet, you do not know why you're still alone?
You over-demanding son of a bitch!!!
What makes you think that you deserve the best?
that you'll find love and love'll find you too?
what makes you believe that you should get someone smart and beautiful and tolerant to your neurosis?
where do you dream to find this understanding and ever-forgiving goddess?
who'll accept your flaws
your absolute lack of character and still laugh at your unfunny jokes?
YOU DESERVE NOTHING and yet, you should get the worst possible thing
just to undermine your self-esteem
see if you can get a grip on reality and maybe come out of hell
phoenix from ashes
newborn in Christ
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
HALLELUJAH!!!!
Who are you?
How dare you to proclaim sanctity?
Can't you see you're too drunk with yourself?
addicted to your dreams
you stumble and fall
is it just frustration?
or anticipation?
You, who grew your hopes too high and now you cannot see above the fields
but you can't hide either
pretend you're a rock
this crop of yours won't fit as a shelter
from your flying fears or your crawling faith
Who are you?
Seeking self-destruction
punishment for a new found heart
when did you start to feel?
when did you become someone else?
something else
when did you start to allow things to affect you?
when did you start to allow people to hurt you?
You, who used to fall in love every 15 minutes of every day and fall out 15 seconds after that
who are you?
Who still falls in love every 15 minutes of every day
but remains in love
until love rottens inside your heart
as it is not eaten
but abandoned on the table after the first bite
who are you?
Lover
hater
dreamer
saint
sinner
rock
weak
humble
vain
rebel
sell-out
tyrant
believer
lier
misunderstood
friend
best friend
worst possible friend
big mistake
big disappointment to yourself
biggest ego in the world
no self-respect
walking contradiction
Hoping for redemption
Fearing peace
Craving for tragedy
Who are you?

I'm exactly what you see
reflected on the mirror
I am you
and you are me
Stranger to myself
Living and loving
Inevitably